Can I Just Read in My Hammock All Day?
My demonstration is tomorrow. My wedding is in about four months. And my mind is consumed with lists – lists of to-dos, of people, of personal goals, of books I want to read. I can’t seem to wrangle it all; I can’t seem to check them all off, or when I do, they get replaced by more actions, desires and dreams.
I guess this isn’t bad. Life is meant to be lived, and a well-thought plan can make living fully even more possible. Routine is good and staying in to complete all the tasks is good too. I just seem to get lost in the haze sometimes.
Sometimes I want to retreat to a hammock and read for days on end. I don’t want to plan or sale or feel like I need to do more. I just want to sit and read and learn and write and be inspired. Perhaps I should make this a priority because how will I accomplish these tasks well if I don’t give myself time to be inspired? Perhaps I should give myself a mini-retreat every day, even if it’s just 15 minutes.
Maybe this is why I just sat down and started typing. Maybe my subconscious needed to process everything that’s been going on in the past 1.5 weeks (engagement story coming soon to The Short Life).
Anyhow, with a day like today, I tend to become reflective. What’s held me back, and what can I give up to overcome? So on this Fat Tuesday, I’m going to give you all the excuses in the world as to why I don’t carve out inspiration time; why I spend too much time in front of screens; why I’ve eaten a cupcake for lunch almost every day for two weeks because tomorrow, those excuses will be thrown out the door.
For Lent this year, I’m giving up excuses and moving forward in honesty and intention. It’s my hope that this challenge will teach me to follow through, get real, be inspired and make the most out of each day I’m given.
Although you’ll probably find me making a few lists along the way, I can’t make up any excuses for those!